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There's a month left, approximately.
I can't say I'm not worried... but honestly, as worried as I am, I'm glaring it down like I would to anything else I found disgusting or inferior to myself.
I will be fine. I have the love of my life, my brother, my friends here, to support me and help me through it. They give me the strength I need.
My family can just screw themselves. They're unsupportive and don't even deserve a mere glance from me.

I have my heart, my mind, and both eyes on my goals for the future. You wouldn't believe how strong I've become... how I determined I am.

Nothing will get in the way of us. Nothing, no one, never. We will make it. I know it. There will be people who doubt us, but what they think and say doesn't matter... We are the only ones who know that we will make it. We can feel it. I can't practically see and taste it. I'm so sure of it... and it's closer than we think.

Oh, no worries. I plan on giving my mother a lot of Hell for this. I guarantee I will. She's done enough to me and everyone I love as it is. I'm tired of it.

Bring it on, betch. Texas has nothing on me, and nothing for me, nothing but grass and dirt and more of the mother unit. Let it dish out what it will at me, I'll face it head-on.

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Besides that, it's been a pretty stressful week. I'm still feeling the weight of it even though it's over. I was sick the first three days of this week, with an intense sore throat, headaches, and body pains. I'd like to say it's all okay now, but I still get those headaches from lack of blood and the body pains... also from lack of blood and the stress.
At least I'm not vomiting like I was weeks ago from being too stressed. That sucked.

Since the school year is coming to an end, the teachers have decided it's once again time to shove more work down the students' throats. So, because of that and other things in my life (yes, I have a life again), I haven't been able to get much art or writing done, so I'm falling behind just like last year.
As my love said once a while back: Wait till June, I'll write so much you'll wish I'd shut up. *grins* Trust me on that.
Not to mention the drawings... Oh, the drawings!
There will be plenty. Trust me on that, too.

Could any of you tell I'm thoroughly pissed right now?
Seriously. I could just tear someone's face away from their skull with nothing but my teeth, I'm fuming so much.
Mm, I'm in a blind rage right now. And really, blind rages aren't as blinding as you'd think. I'm actually more aware of my surroundings, and I can think straighter than usual.
I'm not even kidding.

Shelby + school + Mother's bullshit + missing Tai CRAZYINSANELY + anger + personal issues + a lot of other stress = Too much fucking crap to handle, thus the blind rage.
And some people have been fucking around with my nerves way too much for my liking...

Anyhoo, for those of you who are still focused on the art and literature I owe, I'll just put up a list, to show I haven't forgotten.
Trust me, with all this on my mind, I haven't forgotten.

Art:
- ~Tai-Kitsune TTGL picture.
- *megami-no-yorokobi Jarrod; she and my character Mar.
- *WrenStormbringer Fey Wren and Ronad.
- ~withinspirit Kaoru from Neon Genesis Evangelion.
- ~Eevee9 Life going down the drain; angel Sparrowfang.
- =Spite170 His 'sona in wolf form.
- ~RavenSerpent Kiriban picture for my 4k; her alien Daluvint.
- *saki-hime Cheru/Saki picture.
- ~heromoon Red, and maybe Hendrix, depending on time.
- ~xXTheHatterXx She and her lover.
- =donuts3freak Her kiriban picture for my 5k, of Alex.

Writing:
- ~Tai-Kitsune That vampire piece I promised a while back... > <; Sorry honey.

Also consider the fact that I am working on, like, six other art and writing projects of my own while trying to juggle everything else. It's harder than it used to be.
So don't rush me. Seriously, I'm ordering by this point that no one rushes me.

Eh... I'll come up with some "spiffy layout" for my journal later. I'm too tired and distracted right now.


I love you Tyler.